Still Grieving

My daughter Rachael died 4 years ago today.  Am I still grieving?  Yep!  Will I ever stop?  Only when I see her again.  Am I mess?  Emotionally and spiritually, no.  So where am I?  Right here in Sandy, UT, USA, planet Earth, Milky Way galaxy, God's created universe in time.

So how did we make it?  We had a saying, Cant' go over it, Can't go under it, Can't go around it, must go through it.  We did.  The saying, "What doesn't kill you makes you stronger," may or may not be true.  Am I stronger emotionally? Maybe.  Am I stronger spiritually?  Yes.  Am I stronger physically?  No.  It did almost kill me.  I used to think that dying of a broken heart was about the stupidest thing ever.  No longer.  Until your heart is truly broken, you can never know what that means.

Am I rambling here?  Probably, but it is my blog and today I am not as focused as I have been.

I know some people think that we should be over it by now and I forgive them.  They have no clue and I hope for their sake, they never do.

My family is doing well.  The kids still miss her terribly but it hasn't stopped them from growing (in every way).  It has made them older than kids their age typically are.

My wife is a champion.  She built up our business to support us when I no longer could.  She still grieves too.  I will defend her right to do so with my life.  The same goes for anyone else in our family.


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