Yesterday I walked down a path with a family hat I thought I would not have to walk again. Last year a 17 year old boy in our church was in an accident skateboarding. His brain injuries were severe. He has been in the hospital on life support since. He looked like he was starting to improve but in August he had a Grand Mal seizure and after brain scans, MRI's etc., he was determined to be of no hope of recovery and that he was essentially going to have more seizures until it killed him. This poor family had to face the choice that we had to face 4 years ago. They chose to remove life support and allow him to go home to God. Corinne and I spent yesterday with the family as their son, brother, cousin died. It took a while. My heart was breaking for our friends as we stood with them, prayed with them, and comforted them as they walked this hard road. I don't know why I am posting this except that today I am numb. I don't need comforting....
For those who know me and have known me, I used to be a staunch conservative (1 step away from a compound in Cors D'Laine armed to the teeth). Rachael's death and God has shown me that it does not really matter. Am I still conservative minded? Yes. Do I feel a need to spread my conservatism? Not any longer. There are more important things. My God, His message, my family (both blood and water), and my neighbors. So where am I going with this? Take a seat. Take a breath. I have many ideas, passions, many opinions. Many are very conservative (Tea Party, Reagan Republican), many are anti-government involvement (Libertarian) and yes, many are liberal (Democrat/Socialist/Communist). But let me be perfectly clear (said with a Nixon impression), these ideas/opinions/passions are MINE!! Not theirs. These ideas do not they enroll me in nor associate me with a particular political party/movement. Politically, I am ec...
Matthew 17:19-20 English Standard Version (ESV) 19 Then the disciples came to Jesus privately and said, “Why could we not cast it out?” 20 He said to them, “Because of your little faith. For truly, I say to you, if you have faith like a grain of mustard seed, you will say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move, and nothing will be impossible for you.” Ever see a mustard seed? Pretty small huh? Based on that, what Jesus said, and my own experience, I too have very little faith. Much smaller than that. I was thinking about it today though. I really do not desire the power that can be misinterpreted from this passage. I am too selfish and evil to wield that kind of power. It scares the Hell in me! God knows this as well. Here is what I do desire: I want the confidence that comes with true faith. Faith the size of a mustard seed. I have always battled with self-confidence. All my life. (OK. Those who know me close your...
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