Profound and Sometimes Preposterous Ponderings of Pete

Some memories are too painful to let your mind settle, They boil and slop and spill all over like soup in a kettle. Some memories are bitter-sweet and filled with warmth and tears. Some memories lose their poignancy as we move beyond in years. But the best memories are those that have all been sown in love, And though they are no longer here, are still remembered above.

Recently I was told that my illness back in Feb 2009 left me with more brain damage than just short term memory loss and a warped sense of humor. [Delete the latter I was born with that. ;)].  Apparently a rise in adrenaline due to stress interferes with my basic problem-solving thought processes.  I am a masters degreed chemist in the field of physical chemistry which is the physics of chemistry.  Well, was.  Think about it. My intelligence has not been diminished but an important part of my ability to apply it has. I have become more of a burden to my family.  My poor wife can say with truth that she has to take care of 10 kids still at home. She also was the one who had to inform me of this handicap.  Everyone in my family knew this about me except me and that it was obvious from almost the beginning.  In my struggle with understanding this knowledge I hurt and insulted my wife. So I also suffer from CRIS (Cranial Rectal Insertion Syndrome). She has forgiven me because she is a w